Saturday, January 5, 2013
Purpose Driven
It has been many years since I've posted here regularly. I am truly thankful to each and every one of you who've laughed and encouraged me along the way. I'm also humbled and grateful to those of you who've recently stumble upon it - knowing that it is now dormant, you still take the time to express your enjoyment. Every time I get an email about a new comment on this blog, I am nostalgic. This is the place where I honed my voice as a writer. It is my first blog. This is where I shared my whole self for the first time, outside of journaling.
Last year around this time, I asked you guys to follow me over to my new place of residence - www.purposedrivenresignation.com...today I remind you that the offer still stands. Accompany me on the journey that this blog blazed the trail for. Me. As a writer.
Thursday, January 19, 2012
....And Everything In It's Place
Generally speaking, I tend to compartmentalize, hurt, pain, anger, and the like are reserved elsewhere. It's that's simple. Well it used to be when I was younger
This getting older thing has a funny way of making you seek order and focus. Chaos has seriously become my crutch. I cannot function without reason or logic these days, I get flustered. I guess that's why residual feelings seem to get the better of me. Some may think the new Emo me is a better me- an evolved DD. I disagree
I miss the ability to brush things off. To not give the sense of disappointment a second thought is a precious gift. To put pain on the back day there are some skeletons in my closet that I'd rather keep in a safety deposit box in an off shore bank.
This getting older thing has a funny way of making you seek order and focus. Chaos has seriously become my crutch. I cannot function without reason or logic these days, I get flustered. I guess that's why residual feelings seem to get the better of me. Some may think the new Emo me is a better me- an evolved DD. I disagree
I miss the ability to brush things off. To not give the sense of disappointment a second thought is a precious gift. To put pain on the back day there are some skeletons in my closet that I'd rather keep in a safety deposit box in an off shore bank.
The Psuedo Return
Hi Friends,
I think it is absolutely AMAZING that I have had 125 views to my blog when I haven't even posted in years. I love that people still check back in, or happen to come across The Daily Dose (formerly the late not so great 20s) in other ways.
I just wanted to take some time to thank you all.... Thanks! And also invite you to follow me on my new blog, Effective Immediately, where I will chronicle my current life. Having quit my full time job in December, I am literally living on a prayer.While a few cut backs were in order I have not had to sacrifice peace of mind.
I am inspired to find my passion and I will not work full time again until I do. Hopefully the journey inspires others to pursue their own dreams and passions.
Please feel free to join me at http://purposedrivenresignation.com/
Comment! Share! And motivate others! Let's go :)
Comment! Share! And motivate others! Let's go :)
Friday, July 24, 2009
Shameless Plug
Hey folks,
If there's anyone left out there, lol. I know, I know...gone in 60 seconds right? I've perfected the disappearing act. But now that I'm back I am sure you all wanna know where I vanished to. I've been prepping the book. It does exist! It is now available on paperback for reviewers, book clubs, etc. And ebook for my lovely fans and blog readers!
You can visit www.dorchestersdaughter.com for more info. Interested in your own copy? If you wanna support your favorite blogger download yours today!
If there's anyone left out there, lol. I know, I know...gone in 60 seconds right? I've perfected the disappearing act. But now that I'm back I am sure you all wanna know where I vanished to. I've been prepping the book. It does exist! It is now available on paperback for reviewers, book clubs, etc. And ebook for my lovely fans and blog readers!
You can visit www.dorchestersdaughter.com for more info. Interested in your own copy? If you wanna support your favorite blogger download yours today!
Friday, June 26, 2009
Seven Deadly Sins
.... I got this from Nia and thought it would be very telling. Yall already know I'm an open book, think of this as another chapter of DD.
-Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? Yes.
-What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? toss up! arms and butt
-Have you ever been made a proposition by a prostitute? No.
-Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? Yes, I think everyone "has to" if they are active.
-Is love at first sight really lust? No, I wouldn't say lust. Infatuation possibly
-What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Moet
-Meat eaters are…: people who eat meat???
-What is the greatest amount of alcohol you’ve had in one sitting/outing/event? I can't remember...LOL!! I remember the end result though, clear as day
-Have you ever used a professional diet company? Nope
-Do you prefer sweets, salty foods or spicy foods? definitely sweet
-What’s your guilty pleasure store? Godiva-the chocolate covered strawberries are overpriced but heaven sent
-If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? Pay off student loans, build/grow my publishing company, buy a few nice things, and invest.
-Would you rather be rich or famous? rich
-Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? Yes.
-What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? toss up! arms and butt
-Have you ever been made a proposition by a prostitute? No.
-Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? Yes, I think everyone "has to" if they are active.
-Is love at first sight really lust? No, I wouldn't say lust. Infatuation possibly
-What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Moet
-Meat eaters are…: people who eat meat???
-What is the greatest amount of alcohol you’ve had in one sitting/outing/event? I can't remember...LOL!! I remember the end result though, clear as day
-Have you ever used a professional diet company? Nope
-Do you prefer sweets, salty foods or spicy foods? definitely sweet
-What’s your guilty pleasure store? Godiva-the chocolate covered strawberries are overpriced but heaven sent
-If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? Pay off student loans, build/grow my publishing company, buy a few nice things, and invest.
-Would you rather be rich or famous? rich
-Have you ever stolen anything? yes
-How many mp3s are on your hard drive? I've never counted
-What is one thing you’re supposed to do daily that you haven’t done in a long time? exercise
-What is the latest you’ve ever woken up? 11 a.m. i'm an early riser
-Who have you been meaning to contact, but haven’t? various family members
-What is the last lame excuse you made? I'm broke. It's true but sometimes I feel like I haven't done enough to change that status
-How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? I haven't yet but I would love to, my snooze button is KB nagging me
-Who did you last get angry with? my coworkers
-What is your weapon of choice? My words
-Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? yep
-How about of the same sex? yep
-Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? I am working on it, but it's damn near impossible for me to let things go. I never forget
-What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for yourself? a house
-Who would you want to go on Trading Spaces with? JayZ. Does anyone know where the hell he lives, lol
-If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? Me ten years ago, so I could tell myself somethings
-Have you ever been cheated on? yep
-Have you ever cheated? yep
-What is one thing you have done that you’re most proud of? finished college, it was a lot harder than I made it look :)
-What’s one thing you’ve done that your parents are most proud of? idk, I am not too sure they are "proud" of me...never mentioned it
-What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? financial secuirty
-Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? probably
-What did you do today that you’re proud of? let myself mourn
The Friday Fuck You-revisted
I had to pull this segment off the shelf. Yesterday I lost, we lost, one of the most influential musicians of all time. Period. A global phenom, people all over the world are in mourning. THE WORLD is missing a man, crying for a man. Do you realize the magnitude of that statement?
Yet and still we have a handful of haters, who want to cut short our time to grieve by highlighting his faults. I do not care what you thought about his personal demons. I don't. I miss Michael, my heart hurts. And so does the hearts of millions of others. These people have no cause to throw salt in our open wounds.
They are the specific target audience to which I am screaming FUCK. YOU.
If you do not respect the man, respect the man's talent. Respect his influence on pop culture. What is Rihanna's wardrobe without the Michael Jackson influence, who do Usher, Justin Timberlake, NeYo, Omarion, Chris Brown and all your other pop favs model themselves after? Look how much it costs to sample his songs (IF you get clearance)!
I am infuriated all over again!
I can only remind myself that it is not about the haters, it's about Mike. Last night I dug through some old pics looking for one particular Headstart photo. The three year old me wearing overalls with a Michael Jackson button on each side. Yeah, he was even with me on picture day. I was a serious, SERIOUS, Michael Jackson head as a kid. Most people have pics of stars in their bedroom, my Michael Jackson poster hung in the kitchen! If I was in the kitchen, so was Mike.
His music is the soundtrack to my childhood. I cannot separate the words "Michael Jackson" from "childhood", to lose Michael is to lose that symbol of my first few years. I cried for my loss today, I cried for his family, and I cried for those who can't see past his pain to honor his legacy.
And even though I cried for the haters, once the tears fell, I was back to those two words. FUCK YOU.
Monday, May 18, 2009
The Scams Continue
Someone on the other side of the world has not heard that we are in a recession. I logged into my Dorchester's Daughter account to do some work on the website (www.dorchestersdaughter.com if you haven't had the opportunity to visit yet) and found an email. This doesn't happen too often so I was eager to find out what the readers had to say.
Lo and Behold-
DEAR FRIEND,
GREETING IN THE NAME OF OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST. I AM MRS.SOLANGE WAAIDI,A WIDOW TO LATE MIKA WAAIDI. I AM 50 YEARS OLD,I AM A NEW CHRISTIAN CONVERT, SUFFERING FROM LONG TIME CANCER OF THE BREAST,FROM ALL INDICATION MY CONDITIONS IS REALLY DETERIORATING AND IT IS QUITE OBVIOUS THAT I WON'T LIVE MORE THAN SIX MONTHS,ACCORDING TO MY DOCTORS,THIS IS BECAUSE THE CANCER STAGE HAS GOTTEN TO A VERY BAD STAGE. MY LATE HUSBAND WAS KILLED DURING THE COTE'D IVORE CIVIL WAR, AND DURING THE PERIOD OF OUR MARRIAGE WE COULD'NT PRODUCE ANY CHILD. MY LATE HUSBAND WAS VERY WEALTHY AND AFTER HIS DEATH, I INHERITED ALL HIS BUSINESS AND WEALTH.THE DOCTORS HAS ADVISED ME THAT I MAY NOT LIVE FOR MORE THAN SIX MONTHS;SO I NOW DECIDED TO DIVIDE THE PART OF THIS WEALTH, TO CONTRIBUTE TO THE DEVELOPMENT OF THE CHRIST CHURCHS AROUND THE GLOBE. I SELECTED YOU AFTER VISITING THE INTERNET AND I PRAYED OVER IT.I AM WILLING TO DONATE THE SUM OF $5,000.000.00 U.S DOLLARS,TO THE LESS PRIVILEGED.PLEASE I WANT YOU TO NOTE THAT THIS FUND IS LYING IN AN INTERNATIONAL BANK.I HONESTLY PRAY THAT THIS MONEY,WHEN TRANSFERRED WILL BE USED FOR THE SAID PURPOSE;BECAUSE I HAVE COME TO FIND OUT THAT WEALTH ACQUISITION WITHOUT CHRIST IS VANITY. MAY THE GRACE OF OUR LORD JESUS THE LOVE OF GOD AND THE FELLOWSHIP OF THE HOLY SPRITE BE WITH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY,I AWAIT YOUR URGENT REPLY.
YOURS IN CHRIST,
MRS.SOLANGE WAAIDI.
Have they resorted to using the Lord's name in vein now? I cannot even begin to understand what kind of person sits at a computer and writes this stuff. And you have to be some kind of heathen to use the Lord so shamelessly.
But you know what? On the flip side, I cannot fathom the kind of poor sap that falls for it. If we are still falling for scam mails in this day and age, in THIS here recession, I am sorry but we deserve to get got. Dismissed!
Lo and Behold-
DEAR FRIEND,
GREETING IN THE NAME OF OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST. I AM MRS.SOLANGE WAAIDI,A WIDOW TO LATE MIKA WAAIDI. I AM 50 YEARS OLD,I AM A NEW CHRISTIAN CONVERT, SUFFERING FROM LONG TIME CANCER OF THE BREAST,FROM ALL INDICATION MY CONDITIONS IS REALLY DETERIORATING AND IT IS QUITE OBVIOUS THAT I WON'T LIVE MORE THAN SIX MONTHS,ACCORDING TO MY DOCTORS,THIS IS BECAUSE THE CANCER STAGE HAS GOTTEN TO A VERY BAD STAGE. MY LATE HUSBAND WAS KILLED DURING THE COTE'D IVORE CIVIL WAR, AND DURING THE PERIOD OF OUR MARRIAGE WE COULD'NT PRODUCE ANY CHILD. MY LATE HUSBAND WAS VERY WEALTHY AND AFTER HIS DEATH, I INHERITED ALL HIS BUSINESS AND WEALTH.THE DOCTORS HAS ADVISED ME THAT I MAY NOT LIVE FOR MORE THAN SIX MONTHS;SO I NOW DECIDED TO DIVIDE THE PART OF THIS WEALTH, TO CONTRIBUTE TO THE DEVELOPMENT OF THE CHRIST CHURCHS AROUND THE GLOBE. I SELECTED YOU AFTER VISITING THE INTERNET AND I PRAYED OVER IT.I AM WILLING TO DONATE THE SUM OF $5,000.000.00 U.S DOLLARS,TO THE LESS PRIVILEGED.PLEASE I WANT YOU TO NOTE THAT THIS FUND IS LYING IN AN INTERNATIONAL BANK.I HONESTLY PRAY THAT THIS MONEY,WHEN TRANSFERRED WILL BE USED FOR THE SAID PURPOSE;BECAUSE I HAVE COME TO FIND OUT THAT WEALTH ACQUISITION WITHOUT CHRIST IS VANITY. MAY THE GRACE OF OUR LORD JESUS THE LOVE OF GOD AND THE FELLOWSHIP OF THE HOLY SPRITE BE WITH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY,I AWAIT YOUR URGENT REPLY.
YOURS IN CHRIST,
MRS.SOLANGE WAAIDI.
Have they resorted to using the Lord's name in vein now? I cannot even begin to understand what kind of person sits at a computer and writes this stuff. And you have to be some kind of heathen to use the Lord so shamelessly.
But you know what? On the flip side, I cannot fathom the kind of poor sap that falls for it. If we are still falling for scam mails in this day and age, in THIS here recession, I am sorry but we deserve to get got. Dismissed!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
I just found out that my father passed away. Not recently, he passed away on New Year's Eve. Yes, as you search your mental calender, you are realizing that is five months ago. And I found out today.
My brother and I have been living the life of fatherless adults for years now. We knew where to find him, as he knew where to find us. Yet no one sought a relationship. The last time we'd visited with him, it was because a friend of his told my mother my father had had a stroke.
Again we'd gotten the news very late, but when we were told we went straight to his apartment. It had been over a year since the stroke but the damage was evident. We watched as he tried to spoon feed himself chocolate cake; his hand shaking like Ali when he carried the Olympic Torch. I decided then, that I didn't want to see him like that again. The father I remember was strong, warm, and loving. The one I saw that day, years ago, couldn't even speak a coherent sentence.
Was I wrong for wanting to remember him my way? Will I regret it now that I know he's gone? To be honest, I don't know much of anything right now. I thought writing would clarify my feelings. I still feel hollow. There has been a piece of me missing since my mom and dad went their separate ways. This just feels like confirmation.
My brother and I have been living the life of fatherless adults for years now. We knew where to find him, as he knew where to find us. Yet no one sought a relationship. The last time we'd visited with him, it was because a friend of his told my mother my father had had a stroke.
Again we'd gotten the news very late, but when we were told we went straight to his apartment. It had been over a year since the stroke but the damage was evident. We watched as he tried to spoon feed himself chocolate cake; his hand shaking like Ali when he carried the Olympic Torch. I decided then, that I didn't want to see him like that again. The father I remember was strong, warm, and loving. The one I saw that day, years ago, couldn't even speak a coherent sentence.
Was I wrong for wanting to remember him my way? Will I regret it now that I know he's gone? To be honest, I don't know much of anything right now. I thought writing would clarify my feelings. I still feel hollow. There has been a piece of me missing since my mom and dad went their separate ways. This just feels like confirmation.
Friday, April 3, 2009
The First 50
Here's a bit of word association. I saw it on a friend's Facebook page and decided to indulge. I've typed exactly what came to mind when I read the word. I'm on a mission to find out where my head is these days-figured this is a fine start!
The rules are as follows (in case you haven't got the jist of it and want to try it yourself);
Type what comes to mind FIRST whenever you see these 50 words. No second thoughts, no going back and changing things. It's not about being PC and it doesn’t matter how random it is!
1. Beer: I'd have to be tipsy first to enjoy one
2. Food: my weakness
3. Relationships: hard work
4. Crush: Common
5. Dreams: attaining them can be simple or complicated but you don't know until you try
6. Life: is a series of trials and errors
7. President: MAYBE
8. Yummy: indulge now feel guilty later
9. Cars: KB just might love them more than me
10. Movies: Dolby Digital
11. Halloween: for kids
12. Sex: *smiles*
13. Religion: my core
14. Hate: a word I use too liberally
15. Fear: failure
16. Marriage: next step....next year?
17. Blondes: overrated...lol
18. Slippers: slipper socks are heaven
19. Shoes: beautiful and painful
20. Men: can't live with them....can't procreate without them
21. Women: more difficult that we'd like to believe
22. Pass time: Books
23. Cell Phone: crackberry
24. Smoke: stinky
25. Fantasy: Money is no object
26. College: choices
27. High school: carefree
28. Pajamas: tshirt and panties
29. Stars: constantly reaching for them
30. Goal: meaningful accomplishments
31. Alcohol: alter ego-Nessa Fierce, lol
32. Love: consuming
33. Friends: like snowflakes- no two are alike
34. Money: I don't have enough
35. Heartache: devastating
36. Time: never seem to use it wisely
37. Divorce: not an option
38. Dogs: Yorkie or a pug...one day soon
39. Undies: boy shorts are my fav
40. Parents: made me who I am
41. Babies: one day *crosses fingers*
42. Ex: ex for a reason
43. Song: Right now I have Mavado "Settle Down" in my head
44. Color: Blue
45. Weddings: expensive
46. Pizza: Italians think of all the good foods
47. Hangout: wine and friends
48. Rest: none for the weary
49. Achievement: still working on making a name for myself
50. Inspiration: failure
The rules are as follows (in case you haven't got the jist of it and want to try it yourself);
Type what comes to mind FIRST whenever you see these 50 words. No second thoughts, no going back and changing things. It's not about being PC and it doesn’t matter how random it is!
1. Beer: I'd have to be tipsy first to enjoy one
2. Food: my weakness
3. Relationships: hard work
4. Crush: Common
5. Dreams: attaining them can be simple or complicated but you don't know until you try
6. Life: is a series of trials and errors
7. President: MAYBE
8. Yummy: indulge now feel guilty later
9. Cars: KB just might love them more than me
10. Movies: Dolby Digital
11. Halloween: for kids
12. Sex: *smiles*
13. Religion: my core
14. Hate: a word I use too liberally
15. Fear: failure
16. Marriage: next step....next year?
17. Blondes: overrated...lol
18. Slippers: slipper socks are heaven
19. Shoes: beautiful and painful
20. Men: can't live with them....can't procreate without them
21. Women: more difficult that we'd like to believe
22. Pass time: Books
23. Cell Phone: crackberry
24. Smoke: stinky
25. Fantasy: Money is no object
26. College: choices
27. High school: carefree
28. Pajamas: tshirt and panties
29. Stars: constantly reaching for them
30. Goal: meaningful accomplishments
31. Alcohol: alter ego-Nessa Fierce, lol
32. Love: consuming
33. Friends: like snowflakes- no two are alike
34. Money: I don't have enough
35. Heartache: devastating
36. Time: never seem to use it wisely
37. Divorce: not an option
38. Dogs: Yorkie or a pug...one day soon
39. Undies: boy shorts are my fav
40. Parents: made me who I am
41. Babies: one day *crosses fingers*
42. Ex: ex for a reason
43. Song: Right now I have Mavado "Settle Down" in my head
44. Color: Blue
45. Weddings: expensive
46. Pizza: Italians think of all the good foods
47. Hangout: wine and friends
48. Rest: none for the weary
49. Achievement: still working on making a name for myself
50. Inspiration: failure
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Just my thoughts man
I'm baaaaaaaack.
Shout out to KB! Happy Birthday babes. Lord knows you are my daily April fool's joke.
Please don't wonder why I haven't posted much. I have no answers, there is no legitimate reason. Just plain haven't felt like it. It's nice to know you missed me though! *waves*
Between this Steve Harvey craze, various chats with my newlywed friend, Slim's thoughts, and the one argument that will I am confident will be the demise of KB and I, I am beginning to wonder if I am subconsciously sabotaging.
Miss Independent, tends to focus a lot on herself. Specifically, what I need to do to get where I want to be. I guess I have a one track mind-that track being my own road to success. And even if there is a passenger or two in the car, I am the driver. It's been damn near four years and I still haven't grasped the "we".
I can't shake my independence. I have had to do for self since for as long as I can remember. But it's no longer my redeeming quality, it's become baggage. I want to unpack that bag and make room for the domestic goddess. The one who doesn't cringe when she hears Destiny's Child sing Cater 2 U (I am even making faces as I write the song title. It is gonna be an uphill battle).
If there are any reformed "me" to "we" girls out there, please help a sista out. What exactly does this transition entail? I tried a few things with the experiment (which did show promise) but I do not think I can add that to my daily routine.
If you have ideas, I'd be happy to hear them. Maybe even try a thing or two. I am ready for the 2nd step. I've already admitted the problem.
Shout out to KB! Happy Birthday babes. Lord knows you are my daily April fool's joke.
Please don't wonder why I haven't posted much. I have no answers, there is no legitimate reason. Just plain haven't felt like it. It's nice to know you missed me though! *waves*
Between this Steve Harvey craze, various chats with my newlywed friend, Slim's thoughts, and the one argument that will I am confident will be the demise of KB and I, I am beginning to wonder if I am subconsciously sabotaging.
Miss Independent, tends to focus a lot on herself. Specifically, what I need to do to get where I want to be. I guess I have a one track mind-that track being my own road to success. And even if there is a passenger or two in the car, I am the driver. It's been damn near four years and I still haven't grasped the "we".
I can't shake my independence. I have had to do for self since for as long as I can remember. But it's no longer my redeeming quality, it's become baggage. I want to unpack that bag and make room for the domestic goddess. The one who doesn't cringe when she hears Destiny's Child sing Cater 2 U (I am even making faces as I write the song title. It is gonna be an uphill battle).
If there are any reformed "me" to "we" girls out there, please help a sista out. What exactly does this transition entail? I tried a few things with the experiment (which did show promise) but I do not think I can add that to my daily routine.
If you have ideas, I'd be happy to hear them. Maybe even try a thing or two. I am ready for the 2nd step. I've already admitted the problem.
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