Sunday, April 13, 2008

Being THAT girl

I want to start off by saying my fitness and lifestyle change have been going very well. I am sincerely proud of myself for taking steps toward a leaner more toned body. It has only been two weeks so I cannot say confidently that there are any visible changes.... but I am so proud of myself that I can carry on without anxiously awaiting results.

I treated myself to a dress this weekend in celebration of the hard work. It was a great deal! $10 on a miraculous sale clearance extravaganza! It is so sexy and I loved it immediately after seeing it. I couldn't wait to see myself in it but I was already running late and needed to get back to work.

Sadly, when I got home and tried it on, it only confirmed that I indeed have a ways to go. I stood in the mirror in horror. The areas I am targeting in my fitness were protruding outward and were in plain sight for everyone to gawk at. I immediately cringed and damn near teared up.

Now my dilemma is whether or not to return it. I even asked my boyfriend, KB's, opinion! For the life of me, I do not want to be THAT girl. The one who hangs a dress on her wall hoping to one day fit into it. That wouldn't work for me; it would only depress me as I try it on week after week, hoping my thighs won't be bulging this time.

On the other hand, it IS something I have been working on. That is the key area for my weight loss and toning so it makes sense to have a goal. And I can only imagine how rewarding it will be this summer when I show up to an event in that dress feeling beautiful, sexy, and fierce.

But (yes there is a BUT) I have a little nagging voice that says nothing will change and eventually I will make myself miserable.

I have 12 days left to decide whether or not to return it; after which I am stuck with the garment or store credit, lol

What should I do?

3 comments:

Ms. S said...

Keep the dress! It is a visualize representation of your ultimate goal.

Older or Wiser said...

How did I know you guys would say that?!

Andre said return it, lol

Ms. S said...

That jerk! He's a man What does he know??? LOL!!!!!